Today was a big day. I went to church after missing the last 5 weeks since Madilynn was born. So what's so big about that you ask? I did it all by myself and on the amount of sleep a person with a newborn gets. I thought I was prepared. A sling to carry Madilynn in, snacks and distractions for Samantha, all my lesson material. We were even on time. We had a bench seat. I got this I thought.
All it took was one michevious smile from Sam as she took off running across the congregation in sacrament meeting to know I will never be that prepared. There were multiple times when i was carrying both of them down the hall. One sleeping, one throwing a tantrum. I was hoping I had chosen a dress in which my sweat was not as visible as i felt it probably was.
Sam was so excited to go to nursery, but you'd never know it by the way she was blood curdling screaming at the gate after I dropped her off. People were laughing, I wanted to cry.
All during my YW lesson I felt disorganized and disheveled because my mind was wondering when they would show up at the door with her or when Madilynn would bust out into tears because she hadn't eaten much at her last feeding.
I haven't ever run a marothon, but I'd venture to say that today I ran an emotional marothon. I'll need brownies tonight, lots and lots of brownies.
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Go Linz! Definitely a big accomplishment. I hope you ate plenty of brownies and got a big nap :) (um...I need to see more pictures of madilynn!)
Hang in there! Somedays are better than others. Some are not.
Oh Linzi! I am so sorry it was so hard for you! I wish I was there to help you. Don't sweat it though. The Lord knows how hard you are trying and it's His church so it only matter what he thinks. And there are so many people at church that have been there. Have you ever served in nursery? I have, and 99% of the time the kids are happy as clams 5 minutes after the parents leave. It's the magic of snacks! It will get better!
first of all, You have to milk this "I just had a baby card, my husband is in residency, and I also have a todder" card for a whole lot longer than 5 weeks. I am sure everyone was sympathetic to your cause. Next time go to church in your sweats and I am sure you'll have loads of help. You also might try, "who wants to hold my baby?" Because, people hate holding newborns. Hang in there friend. You are awesome!
Oh, I'm so sorry for the rough Sunday. I had so many of those in intern year when Calvin was a baby, and I thought I would like to quit the church. It's just so hard sometimes. But you are a rock star, and it won't always be that bad. Hang in there! We all love you, and I'm sure there re people in your ward who would love to help out.
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